i’ve been going through some health shiz, and i will update you all accordingly when the time is right.
in the meantime, fitspo and vegan on B)
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this is what makes me cringe when they say “i’m pretty much vegan/vegetarian but i still eat fish”
part of me wants to at least applaud their contribution to boycotting dairy and eggs and all that jazz, and then there’s that other part of me dying a bit inside thinking “YOURE STILL SUPPORTING POSSIBLY THE MOST DETRIMENTAL INDUSTRY THERE IS”
so i got this giant mystery package today…
filled with 50 milkshake cups, a giant box of bendy straws, and covers for the cups…. my face when i opened it ?_?
turns out my boyfriend sent all this to me to get me excited for summer, because we like to make homemade milkshakes (since the only vegan milkshake place is in the city center) and go for walks in the park, and this way we can do it properly and it will feel more authentic :)
HE IS THE CUTEST <3
first- hey new followers!! :D
i’m walking around like a crippled grandmother today :P it’s bad!
but good :)
slight increase on the scale this morning, but i experienced the same thing when i ripped my body to shreds at that one circuit training class i went to so i think it’s just water retention to help repair my poor little muscles :P
despite that, i actually feel quite good :) i know if i carry on for the next couple weeks and remain consistent with my healthy eating and exercise my body will definitely start to change and that scale will go down. i’m finally back in a head space where i want to consume whole healthy foods and turn away yucky greasy/sugary ones. and i want to exercise and improve my general fitness. I’m not bothered about the scale right now because i know i need to give my body some time to adjust from how i’ve been the past few weeks. cant expect it to go from leisurely exercise and mediocre eating to fat burning fit machine over night :P
so i think today will be a rest day considering my soreness (minus some light yoga, and maybe a quick spin on the exercise bike to warm my muscles for more comfortable stretching/get blood moving…) and i’m going to have a good long think about how i want to plan out my eating in the coming weeks. This is the final week of lectures and then it’s exam time, so i’m going to have plenty of time around revision to feed myself the way i want and exercise however i want to.
plans will be under the read more so i dont bore those uninterested! :)
Lunch! Spinach salad with sugar snap peas and simple vinaigrette, marinated tofu in pita, an apple and a blushing pear which takes the grittiness of pears to a whole new level….it made my mouth feel realllllly weird :s as in, it was hard to eat? ?? I don’t know it made my mouth all sticky and weird …I was disappointed to say the least
half of a medium/small sweet potato mashed + a cup of broccoli = super super super full. o_o almost uncomfortably so. guess i know what i’m eating next time i’m very hungry!! :P
i think my brain out ate my body today…if that makes any sense.
i was feeling peckish after breakfast so i ate an apple and another banana :P (breakfast is oatmeal with soya milk, a banana mixed in and a teaspoon or two of jam)
i kept thinking “oh i’ll pick up an extra snack ” when i went into uni but it turned out i forgot my wallet. i was in uni until about 2:30 so i only ate what i packed, which wasnt much :P brown pitta bread stuffed with spinach, an apple and some sunflower seeds. i got home and ate some broccoli with salt and pepper yum yum yum
and for dinner, tofu pasta <3
and then later a nakd bar and an orange. It seems like so much less than i thought i ate…i feel like i’m forgetting stuff but i’m not. hm.
i havent been tracking my food, which is relaxing for me, but i’m wondering now if i’m not getting enough calories in :P the weight is coming off so i’m doing something right, i just gotta make sure it’s not coming at the expense of my health!
speaking of which…i’ve had a very swollen lymph node (think ping pong ball) under my collarbone. Blood tests were done, etc and i was slightly anaemic (no thanks to the easter holidays and pre easter stress eating ) i’m on antibiotics now but they dont seem to be doing anything :( on top of that they have gelatin in them so that sucks balls. it’s really starting to stress me out because i’m worried there’s something more serious wrong with me and i’ll have to go through more intense treatment of some kind…=/ meh. seeing doctor again on thursday and possibly getting xrays done.
i have no other symptoms besides this stupid node! which is good because i’m glad i at least FEEL healthy but it’s unsettling because something is clearly wrong. ugh.
uni has been really busy since i got back. I’m sad i havent been able to make another video as of late, i wanted to keep up with that and make it a normal thing but between my random node swelling and spain and easter and being sickly when i got back from all that and uni work…its all getting a bit on top of me :P on the other hand i’m settling back into my healthy lifestyle , modified in a way that’s keeping me much happier than i was. aka i’m not treating bread like the enemy :P i got so used to avoiding it during lent that it feels really naughty now to grab a bagel or a breadroll from the store… but so satisfying xD
plus i’m feeling really motivated to put more into my exercise, as i’ve definitely been lagging! the gym was temporarily closed, which was a good thing for me in the end. the weather is warming and if i really want to smash out a good workout outside is where i ought to be for 80% of them. We’ve got more daylight now so it shouldn’t be too hard to stick a run on the end of my day or something similar! that said i’m also starting to get back into videos and whatnot so that will be good when it’s dark/i cant bring myself to face the rain.
ironically, now that i’m eating more bready things the weight is still coming off swiftly. My aim is to be at 125 by may 1st, which is very ambitious seeing as i weighed in at 129.4 this morning, but i’m gonna keep it as a goal just to make sure i work hard every day this week and next :) I’d love to be dipping under 125 by my birthday, if not at 120!
so yeah, apologies as always for the lack of personal posts. I really do enjoy writing personal things on here because it’s nice to look back on from time to time but sometimes things just get hectic and the weight comes back on and i dont wanna come and admit it to you guys so i say i’ll blog again when i’m back at my listed “current weight”……yeah. no good, right? plus with the weird lymph node thing weighing on my mind i’ve been looking for distractions :P writing about it =/= distraction.
hope all of you are well and have a nice evening/good day tomorrow!